Realization
It's strange how the thing I most resented about a decade back , is the thing I miss most right now.I really miss my dad's disciplinarian ways .He would always give his opinion on how I should do things and how things should be done and how I am not doing it the right way.It would end up in a big fight with poor mom playing the mediator in a near warn torn zone at home.I would play my histrionics; doing justice to my utmost drama queen self and dad would not change his opinion.I stay miles away from home now.My dad still gives his opinion but its more like another perspective of things.He is more accommodating about my decisions now.He does not question me so much as he used to and for some strange reason I miss that.I have grown and dad has aged.Things always change.It's how it is.He is more generous towards me and I am more kinder.More than missing our heated arguments,I think I know there is a realization that he is aging and I can't change anything about it.And there is a slight ache in my heart.
~A , life has strange ways..
1 comment:
From experience, your parents will always be with you, even after they passed away. Raising a child includes letting it go its own ways once the time has come. Looks like your dad has the confidence that you can and will do what it is right on your own. The "missing" is actually a good thing, it's the sensation a pilot student gets once her teacher hands over the controls. It means you are alive.
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