"What to do" ?

A two week sojourn...hmmm..I guess I am lacking inspiration. I am amazingly at a loss of ideas on what to write.I simply stare at the screen.So many things have been happening in the recent past yet I am unable to zero in on anything concrete to make it a nice piece to read.Let's see..Ya i know what I can write about ! I can write about my roomies who have been asking me to write so many testimonials or atleast a piece in my blog.Oh wait ! Still better maybe i can write on our trip to Six Flags where Fiona threw up on one of the crazy anti-gravity rides and missed an unsuspecting spectator below by inches when he ducked by giving one of those typically "matrix" acrobatic duck.Well maybe not.I still don't have the keys to the new apartment and i don't wanna be locked out by writing this.Maybe I should choose something safer.What about my employer?I have been working for her for about a month and while she has inspired me to pick up "Devil Wears Prada" ; I , on the other hand amazingly amazingly set her on an inspiration ride by my very presence.No! Hold on.I am not on an ego trip.The very moment she sees me she gets ideas on how to make me work more.Ab,could you please get the flyers made ? And yes, once when you finish could you please take care of this lamp?Yea right ! Some 100 years old smoke emitting lamp that needs water as its constant feed ! Gimme a break or I am gonna break that antique piece..Hmmppfff! Maybe i shouldn't go there either in my blog because i will end up with a never ending bitter tribute to my employer and i don't want to spend my emotions on her.Not a good idea ! Then what about the movie I watched yesterday ? Casablanca..A great romantic movie.A classic.And more than anything I fell in love with Humphrey Bogart.Well nah ! What's the use of cooing over a character when none exists in real life ? Forget Casablanca.Maybe i should write about the latest book i am reading.Murder at maggody.com. It is about a small village in Arkansas where computer revolution has recently invaded the place and a murder is about to take place(I am assuming 'coz I am still reading the book) in some website address ? Ahem..Doesnt sound too promising.What else is happening in my life ? Hmm what about the fact that i got my hair colored blond :-) ? Well not a good idea either to discuss since I have been reluctant to step out of home for the last 3 days and let's not discuss the success or the lack of it in this mission unaccomplished.
Oh ! Forget it..I just can't make up my mind and as a woman I have the prereogative of being fickle minded ;)..Not bad gal.Carry on ! Long live the gibberish !

~A,Clueless...

"Naked Walls"

Suddenly i feel like today is a day out of a movie.I am sitting in an empty room on the floor.I can hear the jabbing of the keyboard echo.So quiet is the room.Few stuff lying around.Waiting for my friend to help me move.The walls are stripped of any adornment put up in love.I suddenly feel like a stranger in this place i used to call home.I check my mails.And to my surprise I see a mail from my best friend De.Yes we have not caught up with each other in years.We just happen to know each other's little corners in this globe but it has been really really long since we actually spoke about our lives , our dreams , our miseries.As i pen down about her I mention... my " best friend"..Subconsciously...It is always that way with people who might not have been there with you on each and every occasion of your life but people who have actually always been there .De and me were inseparable in school.We were in the same section for ten years in a row.We were contrasting in every aspect of our personality.We were Laurel and Hardy (actually !..) :-) . We loved each other and we competed with each other like we hated each other.We have had our share of fights and our really special times which weighs out much more than any squabble we have ever had.As i think back I am really surprised at how we could be such good friends and such fierce competitors.We were so young but we understood the fine divide and remained forever friends.I still remember days when I used take part in debates..perform poorly and she would still give the loudest clap..The day when the teacher bashed me with harsh words and I cried for the first time in school and she just sat with me silently till I knew that it was ok and things like that happened..Yes maybe we are not there for each other like that anymore.We might have drifted apart now.. Not because of any personal hangups.Life happened.Life has strange way of throwing things at you.Destiny had different things planned for us and we moved different ways.But I always cherish our friendship and the times we had and I am so optimistic that one day in this life we would be the thick friends we were..Sharing every bit of our respective lives...By the time I finished the last line of her mail I was silently weeping and so was she as she wrote me those most genuine thoughts I have ever heard in a long time.
I now realize when you leave a house and move to a next you can probably take away all you have with you and the naked walls wouldn't remind anyone of you.But people who are in your heart and happen to go different ways in life make beautiful colorful walls with sparkling memories.They just make sunshine shine better..Shine On ! Tats what she said to me...(Thanks De for being my friend.. always..)

~A, your mail touched my soul..

"No Such Thing".....

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just to lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you

Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just to lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

~A, Invincible as long as I am alive....

A weekend to remember.....

When i was boarding the bus at NY Penn Station Thursday afternoon , all I was thinking of was that I would be meeting Lis and we would have long long heart to hearts as we always do.Excited is a word that would fall short of what I was feeling .Kept on calling Lis just to let her know that yes I was finally coming to Fairfax... Country Roads , Shenandoah,Rhinestone Cowboy were just like natural tunes on my lips...Whatever gave me the feel that I am going far far away from the madding crowd ..If you happen to see Lis's and my profile in the popular social networking site, I feel our music choice just reflects where we stay and how life is around us..

The eagerness of a long weekend...A calm was settling around me and i fell asleep..The bus stopped at Maryland to drop off a few merry passengers probably visiting friends and family..Maryland meant DC was near and I was getting happier by the moment.Soon I was at New York Ave and there was an instant buzz.I guess the very hint of NY means a lot of noise.DC looked like a mela ground and everybody i met on the way to the Metro Station was actually looking for the Metro Station. Snaking my way through the crowd and eventually jumping red and orange lines I arrived at Fairfax.Lis came to pick me up in a green / gold line bus. Nice seeing her after a month.We made hurried plans of what to do the next day.We wanted to see the fireworks from Lincoln Memorial that was for sure. Mon z arrived from Philly and she called up Shal.Shal agreed to join in and so did Sona and Ini..

Made way to the Fairfax station on th 4th and we met Mank and Vaib.Boarded the heavily crowded train to DC.Soon we were joined by Ravs and Sag and a couple of scary gals.They wanted to take us to some never never land restaurant (walking.....!!!!) and when we refused i thought we would land up with some bruce lee kicks..Mank commented that one of the gals looked like the popular soap vamp...Komolika and we were in splits..Tat kinda broke the ice..We walked the streets of DC at night with my stilletos in my hand..and headed towards good 'ol reliable MacD..Just hogged and hogged...I have never seen such towers of ice cream and without any compunctions gobbled it down..Conversation got interesting and somehow we ended up christening Mon as Chirpy..After that there was no end to the rounds of teasing..We reached Fairfax and the walk home was really long...Big fan of ghosts that I am I was so excited when we decided to walk back home through the stretch of forest to have encounters of a different kind...I simply simply loved it..Ini was scared and the guys tried to make things worse for her...They just let out werewolf cries..Finally recahed home..Promising to meet up the next day , we bade goodbye.
Next day we went for a cruise in the Washington National Harbor and the day ended with a big bash at the Tandoori Nights in Arlington.We all paid for our own and actually handed out around 10 credit cards ..The maitre d' was kind enough to understand ..but Tandoori Nights was not the finale to the day.We met up again at Shal's place and started our discussion on the supernatural.Shal spoke about his real life experience.Ravs said that whatever happens in life happens for a reason.Maybe not for tomorrow but for many years later..Basically the butterfly effect..Things got interesting and we parted with a promise to discuss more on the same...
And as if to reinforce what we had spoken the night before something happened the next day.My bus timing got pre-poned and i needed to get a printout.Being a Sunday everything was closed.Was heading back disappointed from Staples when Lis and me met Ravs and Sag.Ravs said he would offer us a ride to Lis z school so that we could take a printout.And as we drove to GMU we laughed at only how we had discussed the night before how everthing happens for a reason and the reason for meeting kind Ravs was a ride to school ? :-)

Well though it seemed like that , I know why I met those wonderful people that weekend.I was meant to meet some nice friendly souls who make your life better.Yeah old friendships are like great wine but fresh ones are like the touch of a gentle zephyr.I cherish that weekend.And I always count my blessings for all the friends I have at this point in time in life ..

~A, Everything happens for a reason...

"Unwearing The Veil of Illusion..."

Life has passed on by..
And i have passed many a years wearing rose tinted shades..
Foolishly swept time under the carpet thinking of the times when love was mine
A naive and young heart then...I now know otherwise
That love was never meant to be mine
And as I see the ashes lying around
I know that my chances are gone..Life went by
And love never was and never would be mine...
Never was and never would be mine....

~A,Anonymous...