Lines which say it all in very few words..

In the name of honesty

In the name of what is fair

You answer all my questions

But never really answer my prayers

We have no secrets , Carly Simon

I have three good reasons to survive

One is eight and one will soon turn five

Third one is a woman who still has her pride

And that makes three good reasons to survive

Three good reasons , Crystal Gale

~A, loves confessional songs

A very arithmetical kind of love..

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
A three is all that's good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath a vicious square root sign
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick with just some quick arithmetic
I know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see
Another square root of a three
Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
And with a wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed.

~A, made me smile..from a movie

Is Roger the GOAT ?

So finally Roger Federer won the Roland Garros ! The much eluded grand slam title for a career that has spanned 10 professional years.But all is well that ends well.And I mean end only in the quest for a grand slam.The bloke looked all the more rejuvenated at the RG press conference and hungering for more now that he has joined the greats like Rod Laver , Roy Emerson in the Hall of Fame for winning all the Grand Slams and equaled Pete's GS titles of 14.There is no doubt that it is not a mean feat but all mortals have this nagging habit of speculation.Is he really the greatest of all times (GOAT) ? Even though Agassi , McEnroe have been open in their praise and acceptance of Roger definitely being one of the greatest , yet we speculate.What about Rafa ? True.I agree.Rafa has been Roger's nemesis for quite sometime.It has been more like Roger having the Nadal complex.Facing Rafa has been a mental block for the quiet and demure swiss.And Rafa is exactly the opposite of Fed in game and temperament.I totally agree with the speculation. People say he didn't beat the best ! Had Rafa been beaten in the finals , the king would have been crowned more willingly. But does it matter for now ? I think he has the cup in his kitty and 14 to his name and history written and that's what matters as of now.I know Rafa is currently the best.But will he be able to equal Rog's records ? He is already plagued by injuries and rumors are doing the rounds that he might pull out of Wimbledon 2009.Tennis is not just about the game.Its about fitness , temperament , poise and grace.And Roger embodies all.
The man's shyness does not escape you.An idiot tried to put a cap on him and a Barc flag on court during last Sunday's finals.He just shied away.The RG official website wrote a very interesting line- The idiot should have tried that on Marat Safin !! :D ...He wouldn't have escaped without a whack.But Roger just tried to pull away.He is a darling with the French crowd because of his game and grace.I loved Soderling's candid interview after the finals.The press asked him how did he feel about the match? He said -I say after every match played with Roger that I played a very bad match.But now this has been 10 times in a row.I think Roger makes me play bad. Asked about Nadal and Roger both being his opponent , he said I beat Nadal since I understood his game.But Roger was way too good.He was fast and accurate and I had no chance!
I hope for the time being speculations would be put to rest since we heard it from the best person to judge at the moment.Let the guy bask in his glory.He is already in good shape and is also going to be a father this summer.
Its good to see nice guys finish first.Its about time.

~A, Federer Fan

Confessions ...

I confess ..I am paranoid about getting married.There are no pressures but I know its gonna happen sometime next year.Am I ready ? Hell no !! Not yet.The decision I take now is gonna shape the next phase of my life.Do I wanna be with someone? Yes I do.But on my own terms.Is it possible in a marriage ? Of course not.The only term in a marriage is a life long sentence where there is no parole.I know I feel this about a marriage yet I do not believe in casual habitating with another human being either.Its contradictory.I do not want to live the utterly individualistic self sufficient life of an ambitious person , I do want the mess of people around me and yet I crave my freedom to be as I am now.Damn ! I still haven't figured out what I want.Nobody prepares you for this in life.

I was watching 'Marley & Me' today and even though the film is a lot about the dog-man bonding , all my eyes could notice was Jen Aniston going from a talented reporter to a full time mom with three kids and no career.In the end it all came down to that ?She seemed happy.Would I be ?'Scary ' is the word that popped in my mind!

I have seen all my sisters sacrificing their careers.Maybe we are not heartless people who can leave hearth and home when circumstances demand and keep their own ambitions ahead of everything.I am so close right now to something I have always dreamed of that I do not wanna leave it now.I would be giving up my dreams.Giving up everything that I have always worked for.It is so strong that I can feel it in my blood ! 

I can't make a decision.Let destiny decide.I am just hoping that  I can call myself 'destiny's child'.I know I want my cake and eat it too...Is it not possible just this once?

~A, Conflicted....